Tomorrow

As I sit and wait for some news tomorrow, I am reminded once again of how often we place our happiness on what will happen tomorrow. Even though I have a perfectly beautiful, gorgeous sunny day today. I find my mind continually drawn to the fact that tomorrow I will find out whether or not I have a job.

Wait and weight. I never really thought about it but there is a great deal of weight in waiting. I actually got distracted from writing last night, so here I am the next morning, still waiting. Even though I am confident that God has me in his hand, and I have prayed that this only work out if it is in His plan, I still have an anxious heart. I still am insecure about what will happen. My mind has already starting planning contingency plans for either result.

My husband and daughter have both texted, asking “have you heard yet?” The waiting is horrible. I feel the weight on my heart, and in my tensing neck muscles. The frustrating part is that I can’t do anything about it. I know I should get a call today, but I don’t know what time. I can’t control if it is a yes or no. I can’t control when or why or how. So I wait.

Isaiah says- “Those that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength”. Paul says- “I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am in.” Joy says- “Enough already”. Good thing there are better suggestions than my own. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” from Jer 29:11. Phil. 4 reminds me also to “dwell on those things that are good”.

So I will choose to put on some music and get busy doing the normal stuff that needs to be done around the house and when I find myself drawn once again to this weight of wait, I’ll try to let it go, and pray it away.

Keith green sings, “Well I wanna thank you now, for being patient with me, Lord it’s so hard to see when my eyes are on me”.

Lord, turn my focus to what is needed now, rather than so much on what is to come. Thank you for this day, for this time, for your word and promises. Thanks for being patient with me.